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Tuesday, 10 March 2009

  • A series of observations, and comments.

    Can you do nothing so often it becomes something?

    Does anyone know what Avoidant Personality Disorder is? I was reading my roomie's abnormal psych book, and it popped out at me. It's an interesting disorder.

    I have a feeling, that once I graduate, my life is going to come to a grinding halt. Although "grinding" implies that it's moving fast now, when it really isn't. So maybe I should say, my life is going to come to a quiet halt.

    I think intellect helps people deal with depression. When you can meditate and analyze things, it helps. Being logical is an emotion normalizing action. It seems. Although I can see how it would have the opposite effect in those with melodramatic tendencies.

    Shouldn't people who know about technology be the ones working in the technological support office, rather than people who only kind of maybe sort of know about technology?


    The library air conditioning works just fine, they use the air conditioners to draw the moisture out of the air in order to protect the books, periodicals, newspapers, and computers, yet I'm stuck in a dorm room that is sticky and hot
    (inducive to mold) because they refuse to turn the cold air on.

    All I want to do is be socially, financially, and physically comfortable.... is that too much to ask?.... of course.

     

Friday, 20 February 2009

Thursday, 22 January 2009

Tuesday, 20 January 2009

  • Currently
    Only by the Night
    By Kings of Leon
    Sex is on fire
    see related

    so It's been a LONG TIME since I've updated

    I've been very preoccupied

    a lot has happened, but then again nothing much has really happened

    I graduate in May with a Bachelor's in Creative Writing (English Secondary Major), and no clue with what I should do, or even can do.

    Wide eyed panic in the face of unrelenting fear.

    That's what I feel when looking for a post-graduation job.

    That's what I feel when looking at Graduate School requirements.

    That's what I feel when filling out the Graduate Assistantship Applications.

    I've no publications or noteworthy acheivements in areas of research.

    What are the professional acheivements of a recent college graduate? For me, Nill.

    Extra-curricular activities - alas, the one thing I could have done differently. Damn.

    References - that I can do, i've got references out the .......

    Military Service.................................................. wtf.

    Academic honors - potential who's who candidate. Scholarships - a few, but most importantly look and see how I didn't lose any of them. Prizes - nope. Fellowships - yeah right. Honorary Degrees - who, what now?

    Son of a Bitch, life blows.

    I know more words than ideas, what's the use in that?

    Sé español, pero no puedo usarlo en la vida real. No entiendo cuando otras personas hablan muy rápido, y he olvidado mucho.

    Ich kann Deutsch sprechen aber es ist unbrauchbar.

    On top of everything I feel as though I'm in the wrong place at the wrong time.

    Update on the frontier of my life: I work at walmart and don't particularly like it. I'm still in school, I still live in the dorms, I need to find an apartment somewhere in town by May, and I need someone to live with in said apartment. And something random, the dog my family had for 14 years just died. I'm not really sad. I loved the little bugger, but he was very old, and I think possibly miserable.

    I just realized something, next month my maternal grandmother will have been dead for three years, and my paternal grandfather has been dead for a year and a half, and I still miss both of them just as much as the day they died. I'm sort of sad that I can't say the same for my maternal grandfather, I was just too young when he passed. My Granny Lela is still here, and it seems like she will be for a long time to come.

     

Thursday, 03 July 2008

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    • State: Arkansas
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    • Birthday: 8/21/1987
    • Member Since: 12/14/2004

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